good job.

i'm short,only 5'4 [but have huge boobs,lmao]

i've got pictures up, i'm not sure if you've looked at them, but it kinda shows what i'm talking about.[not the messuring tape pictures]

stay strong starve on-fadingobsession

[fadingobsession]

wow im so happy for you!

Good luck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

: )

yay, that's really great. I'm aiming hard to reach my goal weight too. I'm inching closer and closer. It's all about consistency, and avoiding the slightest bit of temptation as possible.

Good luck!!!!!!!

weight wise i'm doing great too.

the day befor christmas i got on the scale and had gained all the way up to 160lbs.

5 days later i weighed 145lbs.

that's what i weigh right now. i hope i can keep this up:)

you're doing amazing. keep up the good work.

we'll both be thin befor we even relise it,lol.

stay strong starve on-fadingobsession

i got down to 146, i'm back to 152:'(

i'm going to go stricked until hubbys b-day[dec22] then after christmas i'll go back to being strict. my mom sid she'd try to help me lose 15pounds[that's still 10more then how big i was when i met my hubby though]. i'm excited to have her help.

plus in jan we're moving out of my mom's which means i'll make our meals no more going out. i'll loss at least 10lbs off that alone,lol.

good luck, stay strong-fading

Hey -

I've got a nice new diary for next year, too. Mine will record my weight at the start of each entry, but it's also going to journal my day. I'm excited to start it, I love diaries.

Ash

Hey -

If theyre going to sedate you that would suggest to me that you'll be awake. You'll just be really groggy and won't really know what's happening. That will be fine.

I was on the floor because I get all hyped up when I have to have a needle, it's like a phobia I guess, so it's all I think about, and I start breathing really shallow and sort of hyperventilate, then I faint. It's my own problem, I think about it too much and dwell on needles and blood and stuff and totally freak myself out.

The colonoscopy was up my bum. I had to wear the gown, with nothing underneath. But I feel ok about it. I was asleep when they did it, so I wasn't embarrased or anything, and there is no pain or discomfort.

I'm not really sure what polyps are exactly, but they're like a growth, like a stick with a ball on the end of it.

You're going to be fine, really. It was a painless, quick procedure. The gastroscopy takes only 5 or 10 minutes.

Ash

Hey -

Are you going to be asleep for the gastroscopy? Sometimes you are, sometimes you're not. I was asleep for mine, and it was nothing. When I woke, I felt nothing, no pain, no discomfort, nothing. It was fine.

Right before they put me to sleep, they put a round plastic tube sort of thing in my mouth and I had to bite down on it. I suppose they feed the camera through it.

I wouldn't stress about it, I've got no pain, and wouldn't even know it had been done!

Ash

you go girl.

i haven't lost any because i've eaten this week(damn holiday), but i haven't gained any either.

Good Luck! I know you can do it and we'll be there for you the whole way.

i read it all,lol. glad you're gtting back on track. i like your new plan. you can do this girl. keep up the good work.

stay strong - starve on

-fadingobsession

i'll miss you:( i keep f***ing up too, if it means anything to you. i reached my 2nd goal then blew it, and am almost what i was to start with:( if you want to still talk you can email me fadeobsession@yahoo.com who knows maybe you'll even get my real name,lol. i hope things start looking up for you.

stay strong-fadingobsession

ignore all these people...remember if it tastes good its trying to kill you...and nothing tastes as good as skinny looks or feel.

Stay Strong-Starve on

~eli

Ignore the people who attack you. There are many who think it is simply a choice, and don't realize that it isn't for the majority of us to be EDed. For most of us it is like being ADD or OCD. Not something you can control as it controls you. To quote happy bunny, "People are stupid...throw rocks at them." lol

I love your goals. Short enough spans to make the possible, but each is a step down from the previous. Good idea.

[AnaCelticFairy]

I wish that you could take that determination to be thin and focus it on being healthy. I believe that if you find the right balance, you already have what it takes to gain the physique that people would say "Damn, I wish I had her body," instead of "Damn, I want to help her."

I'm not knocking you in any way, but coming from someone who has her own OCD, I know that balance is key. God bless you.

i support you, but of course i suffer from anorexia and bulimia, so i understand.

here's my goal chart, alot similar to yours....

sw-165+ current(my weigh in is tomarrow, i started this week at 153, but last time i got on the scale it was down to 149...)

1.gw-155

2.gw-150

3.gw-145 

4.gw-140

5.gw-130 

6.gw-120

7.gw-115

8.gw-102

9.gw-95

don't listen to the stupid comment form ignorant people who have no idea what you're going through. after week 6 and 7 you'll be back to having energy, it goes away for a while when you're eating very little, but push through it and you'll have tons of energy. your plan seems good, just stick to it. good luck, i'm here for you if you ever need some support.

stay strong-starve on

-fadingobsession

I don't want to offend you or anything but becoming thin is a lifestyle change. Are you going to stick to this plan forever? Because if you aren't then as soon as you drop it you will just put the weight back on. If you want to lose weight, then you should eat 3 meals a day or 4 or 5 small meals. And you should exercise for at least an hour a day. Calorie counting doesn't work because as soon as you tell your body that you can't have it then all of a sudden, you will crave it. And this plan will only make you feel exhausted all the time. I really hope that you don't go through with this plan because it's extrememly unhealthy and it will do more harm then good. Good luck. And this is not supposed to be ofensive in the slightest.

Take care of yourself,

Jax 

being thin makes you much happier and gives you more confidence.

[glamfairy]

thanks for the comment, it's always good to here from you.

sorry about your back, that sucks. i threw mine out when i was 15. i stayed a week at my friends house and my dad forgot to feed my fish. i had 30 guppees(they just had babies), and everyone of them died. it was midnight when i got home, and no one would help me get the tank out of my room, and i couldn't sleep because of the smell. i ended up taking about 5 cupfulls of water out then i got frustrated and just picked up this freaking huge 10gallon tank. i made it right out side my back door then dropped it. my back went out, and we were moving at the time. i felt so bad because i couldn't help. my mom didn't take me to the doctor though, my sister just gave me so flexerals and hydros. i couldn't walk for a week. now i'll be fine for a while, but then my back will randomly start hurting to the point i can't walk again, and it sucks.

yay for your weight loss, keep it up i know you can.

i'm going to blow it today, im not eatting until this evening, but duncan doughnuts just opened in our town and my mom is buying some for dinner. i know i'll probably binge....maybe i can get away with purging though, who knows i'll update about it later.

stay strong, starve on

-Obsession 

[fadingobsession]

you'll be okay, you're getting better and better.

i've been obsessing ovr calories today, at work i was going to eat some wheat crackers, it gives you a number and says so many calories for that number, so i divied the calories by that number to see how many each cracker had, then desided i could only eat 6. so i did, then did 50 jumping jacks. then at dinner i was like looking at my food and said i wonder how many calories is in macaroni? mom said for your portion not alot. i lifted up my plate and was like, do you think this is 450calories, she said i highly doubt it. i was all excited. then i'm looking at the calorie on the bag of rolls and am sitting there counting to myself under my breath, and my dad looks at me like i'm nuts, i said oh sorry was i counting again. i desided to give up to of the food choices to have another roll, and the calories where pretty equal. lol....

i am obsessive, borderline ocd.

have fun out, remember they have tons of cals to, so either dance like crazzy or drink so much you puke,lol. anyays have fun party like a rock star.

-Obsession

actually it sid 149. that in itself is enough to make me keep it up.

your drinking calories will be burned with dancing. if you get drunk enough you'l end up puking anyways, and then even more calories go away,lol.

have fun, and good luck.

-Obsession

sorry you messed up already :( if it means anything to you i screwed up today too.

lately i've been extreamly freaked out if someone wants me to eat something and it doesn't have the calorie count on it. i flip out, i'm like i can't eat it i don't know what's in it.....

i worked out a ton today though. maybe it helpped.

i know this sounds gross but take a tablespoon of viniger and drink it(may make slightly nausated, but it passes), it's a food suppresent you won't be hungry afterwards.

also try doing situps or crunches whenever you're hungry, by time you get done you won't be hungry any more.

good luck with tomarrow, i'm sure you'll do better:)

stay strong-FadingObsession

i see you added the exercise too;)

this is a good way to keep track, and see where we mess up(i seem to, don't know if you do though), then we can see what we're doing wrong.

-FadingObsession

omg, i'm so copying your idea, im using yoour chart okay? i already have messurments though, although i wish i didn't know them:(

good luck.

the battle begins and food won't win, i'll do whatever it takes to be thin!

thnx dear, yes we can do this. i will do weekends the same as you, and do our own during the week(i'll remeber to motivate you too). i already blew this weekend, but i'll start it this coming week.

got to go to work now ttyl

-Fading

sure thing hun, i'll do it with you. i don't do 2 meals though, i just eat under 500cals, perferably 300, a day. if i go over i normally purge. but i'm all for liquid weekends, or just sundays to strt witch ever you prefer.

my ed has been off and on since 11, but really bad resently. i was looking at our similaritys, and forgot, even though i maried a guy i generally prefer women, lol, he's one lucky sob, he maged to sneek in there,lol...

set your goal weights, it helps to right them down and cross them off as you go. to get to my final i have to cross off 9 gw. but oh well, with help i know i can do it.

i hate not having someone to understand or someone to talk to so i'll definatly be here for you.

-FadingObsession

think thin

[fadingobsession]

good luck with it all. my goal final goal is 95-102, i'd be okay at 115, 115 is what i tell people my goal is, but in my mind i see it more as 100ish.....

[fadingobsession]

i'm 153 right now. i had bulimia for 2 years straight, then it turned into both bulimia and anorexia. then i struggled on and off for 3 more years. for the past 2 years i had no problems, but i got huge 165+. about 2 weeks ago my ed(i'm thinking it's both ana and mia) came back over me and strong. i'm back to counting every calorie, avoiding food compleatly, purging, and i over exercise too.

i'm like you in other ways too, i'm almost 19, i have been deppressed to the point of suicide, i actually was hospitalised befor from it. i had a cutting addiction for 5 years straight(have only had about 4 relasps in the past 21months).

i also want give my real name here.

i think we'd get along, and could help motivate each other through the e.d.

i'm adding you to my faves

-FadingObsession